From the beginning of my life I learned a lot about God. But eventually God became simply an idea, and intellectual concept to me.

I did not know what selfless love was and because of this I approached relationships as a way of seeking my own gain. Whether that was security, emotional fulfillment, or using others and allowing myself to be used in return.

I was living in a tiny little world where my happiness was measured by what I was getting from those around me and nothing in my life had true purpose or meaning. Seeking my own pleasure had brought me ultimately absolutely nothing.

One night I finally faced my selfishness, who I was, and what I’d become. I cried out to God and told Him I was sorry for the years of turning my back on Him.

In that moment, his light, his mercy, his compassion and love came flooding in and he offered me life instead of death, true love instead of lust.

God is no longer just an intellectual idea to me. His love has given me the true intimacy I was searching for and gives true meaning and purpose to every part of my life.